There are certain times during the year that I am now taking the time to reflect on. New Year’s is one of them; I look back during that calendar year and take stock, what happened last year? What did I learn? What did I overcome? How did I feel overall? How do I feel? And – what dreams am I working to achieve?
Another poignant date I am given the opportunity to reflect on is my birthday. I have lived another 365 days (yes, consecutively haha), all of which added to being me, 365 days that have contributed to this current birth year – this birthday, and all the years prior to that. A compounding effect if you will. It is a beautiful thing to be alive and over the years, my appreciation for the gift has increased.
This year is a decade marker for me. It’s fantastic. It’s liberating. It’s giving an opportunity to reflect on so much of what has made me, me, since the day I was born. There is so much. To much for this simple love letter, this love of being and recognizing all of what I am blossoming into as I become ageless with my aged wisdom.
I reflect back on years of fear, years of doing what was the “right thing to do”, years of not being emotionally in touch, years that I blamed, that I suffered. Years of which I rejected myself, my body, love and acceptance. Years of lessons rich in meaning, even if I wasn’t able to do anything but survive those years and making meaning of it later, when I became clearer eyed. Years of having dear friends, years of having intense family strife, years of healing and doing the work… and now, years of living with joy in my heart. With a Knowing that if I were to follow that crazy heart, the most beautiful life experiences happen… Those experience that show me my resiliency, my strength, my courage, my self love and compassion, and through the challenge all of what life presents, my ability to be me and follow my joy, my freedom; especially when the path is only in unconventional and only meant for me.
As I walk into this current decade, I am grateful for all the life experiences lived, lessons learned, trials of fire and peril I have not just survived but thrived because of, and they have made me uniquely and imperfectly me. I walk into it with my confidence and my courageous heart leading the way. I walk into it surrendering and allowing life to unravel without need to control it or to fear any of it. I walk into it with a calm peace, ease, and contentment. I walk into with arms wide open, not in fear that my age is taking my beauty, my life force, but in excitement of the years I am living and knowing the years I have lived are adding to my wisdom, my heart, my joy, my relationships, and my dreams.
As I awaken on my day, into new my year, my new decade, I know in my outrageous heart big things will come. New expansion, new directions, new possibilities, new adventures; all helping me be wonderfully, perfectly, imperfectly me, and I welcome them all.
– Krysta, New Hampshire
All Love Letters’ are pristine, posted as they were received. Please forgive any spelling and grammar issues, since the writing was done in the throes of love, and sometimes love doesn’t care about commas or misplaced letters.